The Sentence
Nuns vow to remain honorable to God, and physicians vow not to harm, and Amazon vows to swiftly complete next day delivery despite the snow, and dangling participles. Few people realize the historian also take a vow, hopeful in the future a published article, a chapter or a book that would contain this sentence:
“History does not occur in a straight line…” Ms. Bayliss charged me to finish this sentence, and she whispered it in my ear. With a right-angle tilt, she unburdened the secret, valueless to anyone else, and an offering of self-discovery, a roadmap to uncover liberation instead of oppression. Nothing more followed her declaration of the transfer. She fascinated me!
Ms. Bayliss said I could finish the sentence any way I liked but start with the first eight words. Most of us wait virtually until college to fulfill this solemn obligation because in successive university generations of history teachers, will ignore all the other words. The teacher manages to pack a lifetime of well-intention scholarship, into the first eight words and reminding us how best to finish The Sentence with their hypotheses. I knew the worse Ms. Bayliss could do, the better she would be remembered. The historian Bayliss finished The Sentence with: “My dear, history always goes in circles,” particularly… all events happen at the same time. I began researching the concurrent events of African American history while studying the assigned
lesson plans. I was the budding anteater forging and extracting tasty ant morsels from scattered mounds (bashing the noses of others, from now and then), and the world opened up for me. In the background of the chaotic 70s and feminist thought, I interpreted the stories, as if to
dismantle the sonata, to reveal its pieces of harmony. The pieces conscience, morality, law and ethics sat there in between the lines I heard from the written text a symphony of history.
Ms. Bayliss had good reason to deceive me with The Sentence; she knew the formula, the paradigm, the authority, would haunt me. And her goal to unmask the invisible black girl worked. A full participant in a personal resiliency, singular and inventive life. Coexisting with a
commitment at Masters for a more relational conception of community orientated to the responsibility of “Do It With Thy Might.” Profoundly, I owe a debt to my great-grandmother, my grandmother, my mother and Ms. Bayliss. They had no intention of being obliging — they had
no real remedy for historical trauma — Each one awakened, nevertheless, an inquiry into remembrance of an understanding myself — who I am and what I believed. And perhaps neither could they imagine humbling metaphors of an anteater and a sonata. It seems history offers a special kind of amelioration. Character building, moral strengthening, and suitability for the imagination to walk in that room, and no one will see a difference.
Up until now, I never completed The Sentence on paper, but will do that in honor of Ms. Patricia Bayliss, and with you as my witness.
History does not occur in a straight line; history always goes in a circle — and returns to a site from which you started. Be careful not to repeat from the original place where the query begins, extend from the end, and begin again. Many levels of urgency exist in history; the stories are incredible and reveal themselves on the roads of time remembered, on the bookshelves, there is conscience, and memorable finds for the mechanisms of repair.